Words.

In my last post I talked about how I wanted to be happy again. How I wanted to not only feel happy but to know that I'm making someone else just as happy as I am. I didn't think it would be an easy thing to happen. I thought feeling how I did a year ago would never happen again. Don't get me wrong now, I'm not just there yet. I see it coming though.

The hours and days that I've spent in Starbucks with this girl have made me think alot about things, about communication between people and how important it is to get to know one another. I feel really close to this girl in such a short amount of time and it's strange how it's happened. It's down to one thing though. Having the fucking mega chats about anything, having serious chats about past and present and of course talking in a general matter. I know everyone talks, don't think that I'm an idiot here. For me, communication between two people is something I never seen as important as I do now. Forget texting or talking online, they're good too but what I'm trying to say here is, I've never enjoyed talking face to face with someone as much as I do with this one.

My happiness is slowely regaining. I'm trying not to stray into doing or saying things that I have in the past which I've regretted doing, the strange thing is though, I feel that I haven't changed at all. I've changed in my own kind of way, but not a way that I think someone would notice.

I like how things are going right now, I'm getting out of the house more, getting to know more people which I've always liked doing. I hope things get better than this though, I have a strong mind that they will. There's just one thing that I'm struggling with, my trusting in people isn't really the best. Im starting to realise that I get jealous in other people too. I'm not liking it but I don't think it's something that I can help doing. Maybe eventually I'll over come it.

Other things are starting to pick up too. The Blind are getting some serious business done which I'm very excited about and happy about. I've recently started talking to Eva again, in little bits. I've always wanted to keep a friendship between us but I always thought it would be impossible. Nothing is impossible though and I hope things will be ok between us both.

I'm not quite sure where I was going with this post, some people wanted me to update and I only ever want to update when I have something worth saying. I suppose it's just a little mix of what's been happening and how I've been feeling. At this moment, things are going great, I'm feeling great and I want to keep it that way.

Maybe I'm not wasting my time after all.